My Calling !?!

The weekend just sprinted by. I would want to put the weekends in a 100 meters dash with the likes of Joseph Gatlin an the others. The sprinting by weekends would win hands down. They just disappear into thin air.

Tomorrow is Monday. The week ahead looks hazy and loaded with work. But I still cant seem to understand one element. What is about work that keeps me down ? If I am calling work as ‘work’, does that mean I am not enjoying it as much?

Work has to be fun. Something that I look forward to. It cant be, rather, it shouldn’t be a Gautanemo Bay just so that there is a money in the bank account at the end of the month.

I was telling a friend, that “I truly think I love my work”. He stopped me on my tracks, before I could qualify it, and said, “You THINK you love your work. Do you really ?” Armed with such deadly concoctions of thought, the ceiling at home got the longest and hardest of looks, so much so that I know every undulation!

In another unrelated conversation, yet another friend told me rather cryptically, “If you are asking the question too often, you know that it is true” Well, I don’t know where these folks get all their knowledge and insights from. But it made sense.

Someone else asked me, “If I assure you of the money that you are getting in the bank account every month, and told you that you could do anything that you wanted, what would you do?”

It didn’t require too much thought. In some random order I said, “Sleep. Hit the tennis courts. Read. Watch people. Blog. Listen to music. Write. Teach. Talk…” He shrugged his shoulder and said, “in one of those lies your future”. Wonder scientist !

I tried rationalising with him. I cant sleep forever, unless I wanted to make ‘sleeping with ‘ a profession. I doubt if I have the skill set or the interest for that . Tennis…Roger Federer would beat me even if he played the game with his left thumb and index finger. ‘Read’ I could. But to what end. Blog I could. But to what end…

What really is my calling ? Is there something more fulfilling out there ? Where I can truly exploit all facets of my talents. And be of value. And look forward to the Monday mornings just like i look forward to the Friday evenings. What really is my calling ?

He interrupted. “Listen, pal, lets get on with it. One of these days you will get an answer”. I looked at him. An answer. On my calling. On a weekday! Impossible !

This has been on my mind for sometime now. And obviously so, every Sunday night !

10 thoughts on “My Calling !?!

  1. Good thinking. This has been in my mind too for quite a long time. It is better to do something interesting rather than increase the bank balance.

    Quite true! Let me know when you find the answer.

  2. KK says:

    Sunday night blues 🙂
    Well Monday will always be monday I guess. 🙂

  3. Keshi says:

    I love work…play even more 😉


  4. I have gone through something like this few years ago when there was an exodus to India and my wife said “I am in software, I can easily get a job in India. You need to find a job there if we have to move !”.. I considered a lot of career changes only to realize that what I would have probably done best is what I am doing now and stayed put!

  5. Honestly to say, I wanted a job for the money. And I planned to use the money for other pursuits. But then again, once you work there are far greater responsibilities and slowly you’ll be pulled into the rat race. The interactions and politics will kill your spirit.

    To what extend is anything, well we can say that until it satisfies our current need. The long terms ones need us to move ahead to different modes.

    Nice post. Its monday, and it sucks!

  6. Kavi says:

    Balaji : i guess am loking for something that is interesting AND will work on the bank balance too !

    KK : It goes a beyond the monday blues ! The monday blues, to me, is just a symptom

    Keshi : We saw the Saturday night !

    Sundar : Good for you ! I guess the luxury that hindsight provides is fantastic. Plus, you seem to be so clear and focussed ! Like the camera with 20000 shots

    GP: COuldnt help agree more with the first para! Lifes like that !

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  8. V N says:

    The Monday blues are Universal, I guesss!!!


  9. Swatantra says:

    Lucky are those one who can make their hobbies as their work!!

    I am working on it!! May i get soon!! AMEN!!

  10. Jeevan says:

    I like to work not for money just for my satisfaction, that i am doing some work usefully:) I enjoy only Sunday in the week, otherdays are bore.

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